Today I did another round of letters, this time to private schools in the area. Another spreadsheet, more fighting with the printer, signing letters and licking envelopes (yuck!). During this somewhat mindless task I found myself thinking, "It was so much easier when I was doing this for someone else, they were paying me to do this!" And down I go backwards through the coulda-woulda-shoulda rabbit hole. I actually do this a lot and have found that it doesn't help anything and only makes me feel depressed and bummed out. But I recently found an antidote.
Isaiah 43:18-19 "Do not call to mind the former things, or ponder things of the past. Behold, I will do something new. Now it will spring forth; will you not be aware of it? I will even make a roadway in the wilderness, rivers in the desert."
So whatever your situation, whatever you dwell on, make yourself sick over what you should've done, it's ok to let it go and move forward. The Lord doesn't want us wallowing in guilt or frustrated over the past, He wants us to follow Him and following Him always means moving forward and expecting new and exciting things.
Do you believe that? I'm starting to.